I will not die an unlived life!
I will not die an unlived life
I will not live in fear
of falling or catching fire.
I choose to inhabit my days,
to allow my living to open me,
to make me less afraid,
to loosen my heart
until it becomes a wing,
a torch, a promise.
I choose to risk my significance;
to live so that which came to me as seed
goes to the next as blossom
and that which came to me as blossom,
goes on as fruit.
I was first introduced to this poem by Andrea Kwiatakowski during a retreat, and since then have used it several times on my own retreats and in workshops. I was then reminded of it several weeks ago by Donna Gerrard.
It was a timely reminder as I go through a period of change. I believe (as from my last few blogs) that we are all being called to step up, to show up to ensure that we are truly living fully.
Sadly it is often only when someone faces a bereavement or illness or life changing event that they turn the lens inwards and look at the life they have chosen to live - is it one that nourishes them or not.
So this week, I encourage you to read and reflect on this poem. If today was your last day on this earth - do you feel that you have honoured your truth? Do you feel that you have nurtured that seed you were given and allowed it to blossom and bloom?
Or have you spent a lot of time nurturing, watering and feeding someone elses seed - to the detriment of your own? We live in community with others (hopefully) and as a species we thrive on connection - so yes of course to live in harmony with family, friends and colleagues we need to be mindful of their seed and ensuring our behaviours do not cause harm to them.
However, we also need to honour, nourish and cherish the seed we have been given (some of you may think of it as your dharma).....are you gifting yourself the time and energy to do this or are you by nature, such a giver, such a carer, that you ignore yourself in the process. There is an ingrained habit in some that they have to give - at whatever cost to themselves.
We need to stop this habit now and ensure we are honouring that seed.
Often, by focussing on others; maybe with idle gossip, or with enabling, over-helping others we are employing strategies of avoidance.
This is why some people struggle in savasana or do not like time alone - because then it is harder to avoid the voice of truth from the inside.....
Be kind to yourself, be still, be quiet and listen.......and honour!!
Poem: I Will Not Die an Unlived Life by Dawna Markova
(Also a book by the same title - with the subtitle: Reclaiming Purpose and Passion)